This is hard for me to write, because I don’t want to sound like I have this all figured out, and I really hope that it doesn’t sound like I’m dissing on what we have. I am extremely grateful for all we have, and for the provision that we’ve been given. Just read it from that perspective, please, because I’m not sure this came out right!
When we decided to move from our perfectly comfortable, content, and lovely life in Virginia and had towards the unknown, we were really choosing to pursue dreams. We realized that what we had in Virginia, no matter how lovely, was not the end of the road for us. Part of pursuing our dreams, we have determined, means a move towards simplicity. If our finances and home are simple and uncluttered, they can do more work towards the things that matter – including those dreams.
The wake-up call came for me one day in July when my Mom made an offhand comment about the camp that I wanted to run one day. What? Oh yeah, I forgot about that dream. Somewhere between the cleanup and the laundry and the running up and down the stairs and the cooking….
As we assess our living situation here, we are looking for a smaller place. At our current working budget, that search has been pretty discouraging so far. I was all for downsizing to a cute little bungalow with a cute little yard (in my mind…) but a 2 bedroom apartment ? Notsomuch.
I’ve also said several times during this process, if this doesn’t work for us, guess what? All we have to do to end up with the same happy situation we just left would be to sit back and let it happen. Stuff will accumulate unless we mindfully edit it. We might buy another 2400 square foot home next year. We don’t know. But we felt like we should at least give this a try…what do we have to lose (other than a bunch of stuff)?
When we moved to Virginia 2 years ago, we got a bigger house and the stuff just started to accumulate. I feel like my main aim in life now is inventory control and cleanup. I know I am made for more than that. I also know I won’t be able to completely escape it – that’s not my goal, and I also know I could lower my standards – and I did, many times.
Simplification. It’s not the goal, but its the tool that we believe will free us up to pursue the real goals. And we’re at the point right now where idealism is hitting the pavement and getting dirty and causing a few tears.